I Think I’m In Control
Intellectually, I know that the more I try to control something, the more that thing controls me. But if I'm honest, I'm afraid that breaking down might be the end of my sanity. Admitting I don’t know how to play the hand I’ve been dealt might defeat me. I
Turning My Life Over To God
In my active addiction, I have no relationship with my higher power unless I am in trouble or want something out of selfish motives. I find myself praying to God for all the wrong reasons when I am using. It was only when I finally made the decision to ask God to save my life again that I felt a sense of relief.
Distortions About Love
My distorted thinking made me feel accepted, as if I belonged. I felt I was strong, needed, and nobody could hurt me.