Turning My Life Over To God
In my active addiction, I have no relationship with my higher power unless I am in trouble or want something out of selfish motives. I find myself praying to God for all the wrong reasons when I am using. It was only when I finally made the decision to ask God to save my life again that I felt a sense of relief.
Feelings of Disappointment & Anger
Resentments truly are the number one key offender. For myself, it is easier to place blame on others rather than accept responsibility for my part in things, especially when my character defects and ego begin to take over.
Harboring Resentments
We addicts often hold onto resentments. I once heard that harboring resentments is like drinking poison and hoping the other person dies. In A.A. they say resentments are the number one offender, meaning they are the leading cause of use or relapse among addicts and alcoholics.