Authentic Self-Expression
As I get older, I’m really just attempting to get to a more honest version of myself, authentic self-expression. To express yourself honestly, now that’s really hard to do (without lying to yourself). In order to function as a drug addict, I had to be dishonest with myself and others. Lies are inherent to all addicts. I had to lie to myself in order to get through the day.
The Moment of Truth
The only truth I know to be 100 percent factual is the word of God. My whole life I have struggled with truth; truth of who I was; the truth of what I’d done and how I could stretch the truth to make myself sound or feel better. In addition, the only truth that was real was my addiction to drugs.
Truth- The Hardest Thing to Accept
Coming to terms with the truth of the destruction that caused during my drug use has been a jumping-off point for my feelings of shame & guilt.