Taking Initiative in Recovery

Passivity has been an excuse of mine over the years to avoid dealing with major issues in my life. This way of thinking has only enhanced my problems even more. Prolonging dealing with my problems has unintentionally made the consequences worse. Being passive has led me to believe that I don’t have the power to change the outcome of situations and that I must accept things as they are. I’ve used my passivity as an excuse to be slothful, which has continuously led me into negative thinking and back into using drugs. Today, I’m trying to be aware of when I become passive so I can utilize the tools that I have learned in recovery to change my way of thinking. I’m learning to take initiative and address my problems head on as they arise. I’ve been learning that my Higher Power gives me the strength to resolve any conflict that I’m faced with.  Additionally, I must acknowledge that when God is allowing me to be in these situations that I need to have the strength to put the things I have learned into action. I’m learning to break out of my comfort zone, re-familiarizing myself with the person who I truly am. My authentic self is somebody who does not make excuses and takes action. I must continue to be self-aware and acknowledge when I am straying off track toward passive behavior or negative thinking. I must stop myself before relapsing into an emotionally negative space. If I continue to take initiative, use my strength and stay courageous, I can eliminate passivity from my reality and continue to take action