Control- Word of the week

In my addiction my life was completely chaotic and unmanageable. My using and lifestyle was out of control, and I was totally consumed by the compulsion to keep using drugs. I have never been able to moderate, and the only times I enjoyed using is when I didn’t have to control how much I was using. Even in recovery it still can be difficult to relinquish control and trust in the process. However, I have to remember that I created so much wreckage and basically drove my life into the ground controlling things in my life. Giving up my control and realizing that I need guidance it has restored my relationships, life, and freedom for which I am extremely grateful.