Rebuilding Relationships

When I think about the relationships with the people I feel a deep sense of regret. I have wreaked havoc throughout the years but most so on the people closest to me.  Selfishness and self-centeredness are the root of this problem. The relationship I have with my parents is the most strained.  Over a decade of hardcore drug use has caused my parents many nights of lost sleep and immense stress.  They have had to endure numerous overdoses and near death experiences; as well as come to terms with the fact that I would most likely die as a result of my addiction. To repair a severely broken relationship like this will take time and a lot of change on my part.  I have also become unhealthily dependent on them for a person of my age.  I can’t make up for everything that I have done in the past but I can change my current actions and become less reliant as a start to rebuilding it.  Being clean and recovering is necessary to achieve that start.