My Struggle With Intimacy

Being intimate with another person has always been a struggle for me. It’s difficult for me to express and articulate how I’m feeling.  I struggle with the fear of being judged and rejected which has prevented me from having any sort of meaningful connection. I know that a key component of intimacy is being vulnerable and putting yourself out there to have deeper and more meaningful relationships. In my addiction drugs gave me the illusion that I was connected however what I didn’t realize was that these connections were only superficial and fleeting. I realize that in order to have an intimate relationship that I have to be willing to take chances, be honest with myself and others, be brave and vulnerable.  I also have to be open to accepting that I will be uncomfortable but the pay-off will breed more intimacy and connection. For me personally I want to focus on not allowing my fear to prevent me from having closer more intimate relationships.