I struggle with differentiation a lot. In times of intense emotion, I’m highly reactive and my words and actions rarely reflect my true self.

The longer I stay in unhealthy relationships, the more I lose myself. Eventually, my reactions become my identity; the way I define my character. My explosive actions and illogical statements in response to opposing views or unfavorable situations overshadows who I really am.  This creates a situation where my character defects are more apparent, pulling the focus away from my true self. In these moments, I feel as though I’m being disloyal to the girl who worked so hard at becoming impermeable.

In recovery I am working on my emotional sobriety, specifically with differentiation and emotional regulation.